So, I am sure that you all gave up on this post. I can come up with a million reasons why it has taken me 2.5 weeks, instead of two days, to write this including being busy, sick, having sick little ones, and such, but I should have made time for it. Sorry.
I recently received a card with these words:
"It's an uncertain world that we live in
where so much keeps changing so fast,
And things that we thought we could count on
too soon become things of the past..."
Wow, this so describes the situation in my land. The voting is taking place and we still don't know the outcome, there was a short calm period, and then, out of nowhere, more violence, deaths, protests, etc. I must say that I was discouraged to hear about the recent activity this past weekend, but, at the same time, it is so evident that the Lord is using this to show the people the reality of Islam. So, sometimes there is a struggle within myself. There is a part of me that wants to live in a stable environment where I don't have to worry about when I might be trapped inside my home and having enough food if we are, if I will have to wear the hijab or not, if my friends and family will ever visit me or not because they feel there are security issues, if I need to watch the news to know what parts of the city to avoid. However, I know I keep saying this, but I truly believe that God is preparing hearts in all this to bring people to Him. I believe this with my whole heart. I pray for more laborers right now. The people are opening their hearts and minds. They are listening and receiving Bibles. How could I want anything different than God's will. This is what we are here for. Maybe it is God's will for things to get better, but in these times, with my uncertainty, how could I ask for anything except for the Lord's will to be done. So, maybe, there will be more gunfire outside of my ground floor apartment and there will be moments of doubts and fears. I don't think this will happen, but God is our rock shield, fortress, deliverer, high tower... My prayer is for God's strength and boldness. I know I need God. I know that I can not do anything without Him, and there are times that I confess that to Him and beg Him for the strength and boldness that my family and I need, and also for the attitude to serve Him willingly and joyfully. I read a quote the other day, "I find that it is not the circumstances in which we are placed, but the spirit in which we meet them that constitutes our comfort."-Elisabeth King. It is our attitude that often stinks when our walk with the Lord isn't what it needs to be.
I love the country which God has placed me. If my friends and family would all move here then I would never need to leave. :) My greatest fear is actually in a time where visas are terribly difficult to come by, that we would have to leave. The Lord has knitted my heart with the people and the work here. I am really looking forward to getting this language down so that we can focus on ministry and watch the Lord work in the hearts and lives of the people.
6 comments:
Praying for you today, dear sister in Christ. I have been in dangerous situations on the field, but not on a daily basis like you. It has to be tough. I pray that God continues to give you His grace and peace.
It's me again. Would you mind if I wrote about your ministry and family from my blog to ask my friends to pray for you all as well? I could link it back to your blog, so that they could read about your situation there.
Thanks for your prayers! I hope that I didn't make things sound worse than they are though. Most of our insecurity lies in the uncertainty of the future. Things are pretty safe in our neighborhood right now. We are just careful where we go. Feel free to write but please don't use our last name.
By the way, I LOVE your blog. I told my husband the other day that I feel like I know you and your family through your blog. You do such a great job. I especially like the candy cane story. We have such a great God!
I posted and linked to you from my blog. You can read it, and if their is anything I may need to change for safety reasons, please let me know! Thanks so much! Praying for you today.
Came over from Jessi's blog and want you to know that you are not alone in your struggles. I'm sure it can feel that way where you are, but there are many of us doing exactly what you are, just in different places. (I know you know that... just trying to be an extra encouragement today.) I am excited to know that there are missionaries in your country, reaching people with the true Gospel of Christ. Keep it up! God bless you, friend!
Thank you beth - what a blessing. I especially needed the part about our attitude in circumstances. Thank you for being a blessing to me.
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